Monday, Monday

This past weekend was my son Mattehew's 20th Birthday, wich in past years was a very joyus time for us all. Since he is in Texas this was the first birthday when we weren't together and that sure made me sad. I would love to tell you all that I have a wonderful relationship with Matthew but that would not be true. I love my son with all my heart but he is still in the growing up mode and it seems to be taking him a long time to go from the little boyhe is to the man I know he can be. It is very hard having a child so far away, I don't know what I will do when he is deployed in August.
Roger says it is taking a toll on my life as I worry so much about him, not so much really about him but for him. He is not one to do well with finances and he seems to always be in a ME mode. He will be coming to CA the 14th of may for some training and it just breaks my heart that he will be within driving distance (So. CA) and yet I won't even get a chance to see him in person, no hugs, no personal time. It tears at my heart so much just to think about it. I will see him before he deploys and I look forward to that time a time I will treasure forever.

I have also been dealing with a situation with some family members wich is another sad part of our lives. Roger has a daughter, well actually they are not really related to each other except for the fact that Roger lived with her mom when she was little and then basically raised her for a while. I don't know all the details but do know that he calls her his daughter and she calls him dad which is fine with me. Her and her husband have 3 children but we don't see them very often. Actually when they came over for Easter that was only the second time I had seen their daughter and she is now 2 years old. Basically when I talk with people I tell them we have 2 grandchildren Dylan and Katie. We see them all the time. We also see my daughter all the time even though she lives about an hour away.Roger is saddend by the situation of his daughter but we feel like we have done all we can and after talking aobut it have decided to give up trying to force the relationship. I know when I or Roger walk into any room with Dylan and Katie in it they will automatically run to us with gigantic smiling faces happy to see us.

Mandy is old enough now to get spayed so I will be making her an appointment probably for next week or the week after.She is getting cuter everyday.

One of my many treasured blog friends Winona has gotten me back into a crafting mood. I worked quite a few hours on the purse I am making for Jennifer's birthday, doing the embroidery. Hope to have it ready to put together this next weekend.

I hope and pray that everyone has a wonderful week ahead.
Blessings,Joann